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SLIDe DaY, sPrInG tImE 26, 2001

Today is better than yesterday because it’s not as HOT. As far as the weather’s concerned.

“Somebody Find Me Somebody to Love!

We’re, like, out of time, and I still haven’t eaten my turnover! (I think I’ll save it for later. : )

Anyway, my feelings. They’re weird, simply because I don’t understand them. My feelings are that I DON’T CARE ABOUT ANYTHING!! It seems like that should be wrong, but it feels wonderful. I feel so CAREFREE! I just feel totally UNFETTERED and ALIVE!!!!!! I feel so “P”!! It’s totally weird. It’s like there’s no GUILT left, any where. Where? Guilt? Oh, Guilt? Where are YOOOOOOO? See, I can’t find it!

It’s like yesterday after meeting I went out in service and then blew off my schedule for the rest of the day and played with Amy! I played all weekend! Where did this COME from!?!! Will it stay? SHOULD it stay?

I think it should. : ) I really think this might be starting out kind of extreme, but it will turn out to be a better, happier me, once a little (leetle) more responsibility joins hands with it. Yep!

I’m going to end up going to sleep later than last night! Where, oh where, did the time go this evening???

The Cockayne’s gave me food after book study tonight! It was really sweet! I felt all warm and fuzzy and wanted to disappear.

Free Day, Spring Time 7, 2001

I had a WONDERFUL day! Almost too much to recount. : ) Maybe I’ll do the outline thing again:

1 - I almost didn’t go out in service, but decided to go out. : )

2 - Dave Dahlin invited me to work with them and Lyndamott!! We went to Big Shitty for break and I ate delicious food!

3 - Visited Gramma and Grampa Sallee. HAD A WONDERFUL TIME!!!

4 - Went to the mall and bought Dido CD and an awesome shirt and skirt!! I’m so excited! I’m wearing the skirt to the memorial tomorrow. : )

5 - Visited Wayne briefly to show off my new clothes and play music for him!

6 - Went to dinner at the Dahlin’s! The Redliches and Wayne and Toni O were there. I had lots of yummy alcohol!

7 - I came home and JWZoned out after talking to Wayne briefly on the phone!

Wow. I’m REALLY in a miserable mood today! I feel like a little kid throwing a tantrum. I feel really frustrated. I’m really trying to rely on Jehovah, though, and I’m just now really able to feel that it’s making a difference.

It feels like growing pains. I was feeling really confused and frustrated, but now, that’s what it’s feeling like. Fascinating. I’m forcing myself to act differently than I feel like acting and it makes me want to throw little tantrums.

There’s a stupid guy inside Jack in the Box just STARING at me. He’s pissing me off : ) !!!

Jehovah’s helping me to feel peaceful now. : ) What a relief. I think I’m understanding what’s going on, now. : )