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I started my period this morning, so I’m achy and tired, but that’s OK, because it’s Meia Day, which means I get to laze around! I haven’t gotten dressed yet, and I found some easter eggs on my David Bowie dvd. That was fun. I’m planning on taking a bath at some time, and sitting on the couch in the sunshine with a blanket and reading. I can finish up the Martian Chronicles and maybe start reading Return of the King again. : )

Cancer (June 21 - July 22)
Time heals all wounds, yes. But that’s not really intended to mean that you should tie Time magazine around your sprained ankle. It’s a figure of speech, you see, not meant to be taken literally. I have heard, however, that Newsweek is good for gout.

We’re going to try to do something with the Davis’ tonight. We’re going to ask them if they want to play pool with us. Maybe bowling might be a good idea too…that way the girls would more likely be able to join us. I loved bowling with adults when I was a kid. Of course I only got fifty points, but hey, that’s not much less than I get now. Ha ha!

Sagittarius (November 22 - December 21)
You will get a notion to become a street food-vendor, and will make yourself a food serving cart for the “Bulghur Baron.” You will sell pint containers of hot bulghur wheat, cooked with sauteed onions, garlic, and other vegetables. To everyone’s amazement, you’ll succeed fabulously, eventually making millions off the franchise rights alone.

Capricorn (December 22 - January 20)
Someone named Tyrone is about to sell you a vaccuum cleaner. There’s nothing much you can do about it, I’m afraid.

Aquarius (January 21 - February 18 )
You will overhear a whispered conversation, regarding how cute it is the way someone wiggles their tushy when they walk. You will have an uncomfortable feeling that they may be referring to you. This may make you a trifle self-conscious.

Dan came home, we chatted for a while, but pretty soon I was a wreck again, laying on the bed crying. Sometimes…sometimes…living just hurts so much. And then there’s the urge to treat myself violently. Anyway.

We ended up eating dinner at “Boogie Woogie’s”…God…OK, the food was good, the drinks were good, but they had dueling pianos…two guys playing honky tonk and singing classic songs. It was hideous. I think tables should come with optional suicide guns. When the waitress brought a slip of paper that we could request songs on if we wanted to, I wrote, “NOTHING! Stop playing!!” LOL

After that we played pool for a while, which was fun at first. After that, we went and saw The Triplets of Belleville at the Flicks. I very highly recommend that movie. It was hilarious, in a very quirky, imaginitive way. Dan and I both loved it to pieces.

Something interesting happened on our way in to the movie…we had our first official shunning. We were walking up to the ticket booth and the George’s were walking out…Dennis, who we saw the other night at the caucus and who’s not a Witness, and his wife Roxanne, who I pioneered with for a while. Dennis stopped to chat with us while Roxanne ducked her head and hurried along past us.

Something about the whole situation gave me a feeling of personal power. I mean, I saw her, and I held my head up, even looked at her. She flinched, turned her eyes to her feet, and basically ran away from us. She was afraid. I wasn’t. Haha! And her husband probably thought she was rude. I just feel sorry for Witnesses. Of course, if it had been family, I would feel completely differently. But as it was, I felt like seeing her didn’t take anything out of me. I feel good about that. : )

You need love. You need to surround yourself with love, open yourself up to it, feel it for yourself within yourself. Right now you’re empty, barren. Open up to it. It’s all around you. It’s in your husband; look into his eyes. Let yourself feel it. It’s in your friends; be open to visiting them and talking to them. It’s in yourself. Take time to sit still and get in touch with it. Feel warm pink tones, deep fuchsia passion feelings. Let them grow from within you, let them fill you up.

I dunno if I really feel like it. I kind of do…but on the other hand, getting ready to go somewhere just seems like a colossal amount of work. :p

My laptop’s not working, for some reason. The internet connection isn’t working on it. It says it’s having memory problems. And other stuff. I closed all the windows except for one…Flem comics…I’m still reading all of them…but it’s still giving me a page not found, just like all the other internet sites are. I guess I’ll just let it sit for a while. I hope I don’t have to restart it. Oh well.