STAR CHART

I also worked out what all my transits and progressions are, when they started, and when they’ll move on to the next one. We have dates spanning from 1989 to 2058!

Taurus (April 20 - May 20)
Someone will dash up to you today, say “meep meep! bthpblthpblthp!”, and then dash off. At least now you’ll know how to spell it.

Gemini (May 21 - June 20)
Good day to bring an empty donut box in to work, leave it on the counter in the break room, and send out email saying “free donuts!” Later, spread a rumor that your manager ate most of them.

Leo (July 23 - August 22)
Today you can have lots of fun by beaming at people, and telling them how fresh your brand of soap makes you feel. If that doesn’t work, try explaining how your detergent gets your shirts their brightest.

Virgo (August 23 - September 22)
Several extremely hungry creatures will look at you strangely, today. Throw them a raisin cookie.

Libra (September 22 - October 22)
Some strange “hooting” creature will hide in your bushes today. You should be able to drive it off by whacking the bushes soundly with a kitchen broom.

Scorpio (October 23 - November 21)
Beware of unwarranted electrical assumptions today. On the other hand, a shower of sparks and a bit of ozone can be fairly exciting…

Sagittarius (November 22 - December 21)
You will be in a somewhat ornery mood when you go out to an Italian restaurant tonight. You will insist on chopsticks.

Capricorn (December 22 - January 20)
Another day of social convention defiance, today. You may even go so far as to send a letter to Miss Manners, which begins: “Uh, Yo:” (Well, that’s how Sylvester Stallone starts all his correspondence, right?)

According to my schedule, I only have to work three days in a row next week. Thank God. I can’t work five days in a row, especially not several weeks in a row. It kills me.

Dan is so sweet. I came home at 9:30 to the wonderful aroma of curry…he was making dinner and it was just finished. He made chicken curry with apples and celery in it. Oh my God, it was delicious.

OK, I’ll tell you about what I was going to tell you about earlier. I had some totally cool thoughts last night…

I was reading in my book I checked out from the library about Witchcraft, and most of the books I’d been reading on pagan subjects have been really “do whatever you want”, which doesn’t really leave much in the way of help for me understanding what witchcraft is really even all about or if it was something I really wanted to get into. Anyway, this book I found solves that problem…it’s the fundamentalist book on witchcraft, if you will. I was reading the part about worshipping the deity, and it had instructions on how to pray, and I got a totally sour taste in my mouth. It was exactly the same advice I’d been given as a JW on how to pray to Jehovah. It really, really turned me off.

Then I remembered what drew me to looking into Paganism in the first place, was that I wanted to explore my spirituality in the sense of me getting in touch with my inner power and using that for spells and things. I also like the idea of aligning myself with the powers of nature by obvserving the sabbats and the moon phases. Anyway, I think I decided how to proceed.

This sounds funny, but I’ve decided to worship myself. I think I still may be too tired to properly explain this… but it’s a way of worshipping myself as related to the four elements and the energies they represent. So there are actually four Meia goddesses I’m worshipping…and they’re each far above my highest potential. They are boundless sources of energy that is already part of me, they are boundless sources of energy because they’re part of nature, too. I’m calling them each by my name, designating them according to their element. E.g., Higher Meia, Goddess of Fire; Higher Meia, Goddess of Water, etc. I’m planning on drawing them, too. I have a really hard time drawing my own face, so I might merge photography with artwork. I’m going to draw myself in each element…Meia of Fire will be evil looking and engulfed in flame, Meia of Air will be haughty and surrounded by billowing white fabrics. I haven’t really decided on Water and Earth yet, but I figure Meia of Water should appear loving, and Meia of Earth should appear serene. That one will be difficult, because whenever I take a photo of myself when I feel the most serene, other people always comment on how unbearably sad I look.

Oh God…I’m working on my website, and making graphics for it. It’s so gratifying. It feels so good! : )

I had a horribly stressful day at work. Ran into a JW I didn’t recognize at first; then he recognized me, then we had time to chat and he started asking me all these questions about where I’d been…had I moved…what hall do I go to now… When I told him I wasn’t attending anymore he looked really sad. At least he didn’t ask why. He just said, “Wow, you make one big change in your life (getting married) and you make them all, don’t you!” I said yeah, and that I just really needed to make that change right now. He said he hoped I found my way back, and I thanked him. Things were a bit strained after that, and of course, he happened to be the customer I had the most problems checking that day, and I had to do a lot of waiting around with him for managers and stuff. It sucked. He was really nice and not too pushy, but it definitely left me feeling really shaken.

All-in-all, the whole day was really really busy and stressful, even besides that. I didn’t even realize how stressed I’d been until I came home to Dan’s open arms…and after a long hug, I almost started to spontaneously cry.

The good news is, Dan finally got his checks from New York City!! We have over $1,000 now to get more caught up on bills and things. Both of us were exhausted and brain dead, so we went to Parrilla Grill and got a cheap delicious dinner to go. And Dan said he’s putting money aside so we can celebrate our six-monthiversary at a nice restaurant. Hehe!!

Annnnd, I just got a really sweet email from Jess. OK, sweet is an understatement. My heart is swelling!! I think it’s going to explode!

Cancer (June 21 - July 22)
Good day to be callously indifferent to the plight of the masses. You have larger things on your mind than whether the peasants are happy. Oui?

Capricorn (December 22 - January 20)
Someone named “Bob” is plotting to whap you with a calla lilly. If you carry long-stemmed carnations around with you today, you will be able to retaliate swiftly and effectively.

Tomorrow won’t be as bad. I won’t have to work until later in the afternoon, and it’s only til 9. And I’ll get Wednesday off, which is Meia day. I was really looking forward to having all of Friday and Saturday off, but I may have to fill in for somebody who has jury duty.

About half the time I can’t get into tblog to read Lauren’s journal. It always freezes up the computer… but it still plays that song, and I really love that song. I just sit and stare at the frozen screen and listen to it; I’m really getting into it. I really really love that one line…freckles in our eyes are mirror images and when we kiss they’re perfectly aligned. I don’t know if I’ve got that exactly right but I just caught that line today and was like, “Awwwwww…”

I had low energy at work, too. Whenever I’d page anybody people kept telling me that they couldn’t hear it. It sucked because I was yelling as loud as I had the energy for. :Þ