Mood: lazy-ish
Music: Feel so Numb by Rob Zombie 
Underwear: pink flowery stuff
Hair: in a halfhearted ponytail
Craving: a no-week (when time stands still and nothing really happens)
Breakfast: a bowl of Life and a cup of coffee, again
Weather: looks hot and sunny. I’m not going out there.
Pet Peeve: Responsibilities. : )
Happy Thing: We have company this weekend!! 
Astrologically: I can’t remember.
What makes today special: It’s Adrian’s birthday…I think he’s 27. Also, it’s the date Mae and Ethel both died last year.
Hmm, I have a lot to do. I’m doing some of it…planning the meals were hard because I’m sick of most everything! I am going to make an apple sausage quiche next week, and the only other thing I feel like making is lamb. But I don’t really know of any places that sell lamb, or how expensive it is. I think the Co-op sells lamb chops. I have to remind myself that lamb chops are not disgusting ol’ dry pork chops. Ew. Anyway. I’m sick of chicken, for the most part, and I’m really really sick of ground beef…I wish someone made beef very finely ground. I would like that. I’m trying this packaged stuff Albertson’s has. Their regular ground beef is just a real pain to eat.
Chicken is actually really good when it’s cut up into little tiny pieces, but you can’t really have chicken every day for a week without turning into one. Ha ha.
I stayed up really late last night reading online about serial killers. I was going to look up some information about the movie Monster to decide if I wanted to see it, and got distracted by reading about Ted Bundy (he was really good-looking!) and Jeff Dahmer. And some other weirdos. It’s just so fascinating/freaky/sad/scary how someone could live like that. My God. How on earth do you get there?? I stayed up til 5:30 a.m. reading about them.
Anyway, I’m having a hard time staying on task today! I don’t feel like doing much. I am doing some though and getting things done, so that’s good. I’m making lasagna for dinner tonight. And last night I made this awesome chicken in garlic ginger sauce…yums! 
My feet hurt.
I had a really busy evening at Hastings. WOW! It was just like a Saturday night, except worse. I couldn’t believe it. I didn’t get home until 12:30! :O
Aw, I have some messages from some really sweet friends from JWD. How nice! I haven’t talked to them or heard from them in a long time. Aww. : )
What’s up with Neopets? It’s being retarded this evening. 
Well…what else? There’s not much going on. I don’t have to work for … oh no, I’m working Friday night. I don’t have to work for two days though! And after that, not for three days!
And that’s about the extent of the interestingness of my life. Ha.
Mood: pretty good, but rather procrastinatey
Music: Thirty-three by the Smashing Pumpkins
Underwear: soft, light blue cotton
Hair: messily up in a black scrunchy
Craving: mmmm, a vacation. Hours spent doing nothing, with no responsibilities to look forward to. Ahhhhh…
Breakfast: a bowl of Life and a cup of coffee
Weather: warm, sunny
Pet Peeve: not feeling like doing anything, because I have a lot to do
Happy Thing: I don’t have to work tomorrow or the next day!
Astrologically: Sun square Pluto
What makes today special: Venus goes direct!
I don’t have to go to work tonight until 6…but that’s going to make dinner time strange. Dan’s going to the chiropractor at 4:30…good for him! His back’s been killing him for the longest time. Anyway, I’ll have to leave here at 5:30, which means dinner’s going to have to be ready no later than five…hopefully before then if possible. 
Weird.
I have to go grocery shopping before then. I need to buy coffee, vegetables, and meat. I never finished shopping last week; that’s why. And it just occured to me today that it’s THIS WEEKEND our friends are coming in from out of town! Wow, I’ve totally not been paying attention to time, but then what else is new. It should be fun, but I’m looking forward more to Sunday than to Saturday because then I’ll be able to relax with them and have a good time. I’m cooking dinner Saturday night, which entails a lot of mindfulness, and we all know that the mind is a terrible thing to exercise. LOL Well it’s a good thing I get two days off before then…and Friday I don’t have to work until the evening as well. It’ll be fun. And I must clean the toilets. Sweeping the floor wouldn’t hurt either…it would be nice to walk barefoot in the kitchen without having something get stuck to your feets. 
Gemini (May 21 - June 20)
Good day to put a few kumquats, some of those teensy little ears of corn, and a few brussels sprouts in a tiny little bowl, and leave it on someone’s doorstep with a tiny little note reading “Dear Big People….”
Mmmmm, ’twas a good evening. I learned a meditation for compassion. It’s kind of daunting and seems kind of heavy at first, but I can see how it would really make a difference, especially if used on a regular basis. The idea is that you take the suffering around you into yourself, really feel it and experience it; i.e. look it in the face, and then transform it into an opposite feeling, whether it be peace, love, confidence, joy, whatever. And mentally send and radiate it back out of you. Susan said that it really makes a difference in the atmosphere of a room, especially if there’s a lot of tension. She said it had really powerful results. I still find that rather dubious…it seems to me that the effects would be best felt by the meditator…because they would feel like they’re actually doing something about the pain they feel for the other person, the pain they usually try to cover up and run away from. And I think it would make interaction a lot more harmonious, because one person’s bad mood woudn’t necessarily affect the other person like it usually does…because they would be feeling real compassion instead of irritation at ruining their good mood or something. Or that other feeling of compassion where you feel so bad for someone else, and then you end up feeling helpless and hopeless.
Susan said she wanted to form a sangha, or a group to practice Buddhism together, either at Crone’s Cupboard or at her own home. The ladies in the group seemed interested, but I held myself back a bit. I just don’t want to commit to anything. I don’t want to be a Buddhist because I don’t want to take vows. I don’t want to join a group because I don’t know what it would entail. I just want to flitter around learning everything. I only know about two religions now, and I don’t really want to be one, I just want to keep learning and understanding. It would be interesting meeting with them sometimes, but I don’t want it to be an obligatory thing. That would just really bother me.
The man in the group, Randy, lent me a book on power animals. I’m really excited to read it…just looking at the part on spiders made some bells go off in my head just before class…I don’t remember what they are now, but I’m looking forward to reading it. Also, he made little “dream pillows” for everybody, made from herbs from his garden. Smells like heaven! Gaaaa, he’s a really neat guy. I hope I can introduce him to Dan someday. : )
Dan already went to bed…good for him. I hope he gets lots of yummy rest.
Well, it’s off to Neopia I go…
Aries (March 21 - April 19)
You are about to invent a night light in the shape of a chess piece, which you will name the “Nighty Knight.” You should be ashamed of yourself.
Taurus (April 20 - May 20)
It’s about time you became better acquainted with mustard. Get yourself 7 different kinds of mustard, and try them with oven baked home fried potatoes, or in sandwiches with good bread and fresh vegetables and some excellent Swiss cheese. My granddaddy Stonebender always used to say “Take a big enough bite of strong mustard, and your other problems will seem insignificant.”
Leo (July 23 - August 22)
Today you will attempt to capitalize on the success of SPAM by inventing SPEEF. Unfortunately, you would have been much better off trying to make SPICKEN, instead.
Capricorn (December 22 - January 20)
Today you will realize that your biggest problem is indecisiveness. Or possibly procrastination. Tomorrow may be a better day to figure out which.
Yay! Thanks to Dan, I now have the ability to just delete comments if I don’t like ‘em. Let that be a warning to y’all!
No, really, I’m not from Texas. (But Texas wants me anyway.) LOL
Mood: Pretty good, but sort of stifled.
Music: Underground by David Bowie
Underwear: dark red velvet paisleys
Hair: up in a black scrunchy
Craving: Some lightness and fun
Dinner: Refried beans with cheese, sour cream, and homemade salsa
Weather: warm, muggy, cloudy. It’s been sort of stormy lately.
Pet Peeve: The mess…having to go to work at 8:30 in the morning.
Happy Thing: Well at least I’ll get the rest of the day off. And I love these pants I’m wearing. Sooo comfortable.
Astrologically: Sun square Pluto
What makes today special: my pants.
I worked today from 12 to 5. It’s been a pretty uneventful day…we did watch the Simpsons though. I just feel like crawling out of my skin or something. The house is a mess and it needs cleaned, but I’m too tired to clean it. I just feel like going out and having some drinks or something. It’s too bad…but good…we spent all our spending money yesterday at Target, Fred Meyer, and Wal-Mart, and bought a bunch of more things to decorate with. A shoe rack, a cd rack, some large frames for various prints, umm, stuff…oh, a plant to hang outside, um, oh, pillows for the couches, a beanbag for my special room. We saw a bunch of stuff we liked and are considering, but we aren’t getting them yet until we’re sure.
I don’t want to go to work so early in the morning! The thought is always so depressing…. it makes me feel like a slave or something. Ha. Well, it’s the café, so it’ll be fun. And I’ll be working with Jessica, and she’s awesome, so yay! I forgot to check who else’ll be there. Karey, probably. I totally cracked her up the other day; it was fun. 
Not Josh, I know that…he was so excited because he has a two day weekend now. I love it when that happens…I get one almost every week these days; I love it!! I get Wednesday and Thursday off this week.
Some jerk has been spamming on my journal. It’s really pissing me off…especially since I have no way to delete their comments. I just have to re-post what I’ve posted and delete the former post that had the comment on it. I have about 30 to go through right now, from all sorts of different times. It’s driving me nuts; it’s really time consuming. 
Libra (September 22 - October 22)
You’ve heard that when economists use the word “nice”, they’re actually saying that something is homoscedastic and nonautoregressive. Today you will find out what they mean when they say something is “like, totally kewl.”
