STAR CHART

We decided to do it because, well, it wasn’t something that either of us would go out of our way to do, but since we had the opportunity, we might as well take it, to at least have had that experience. So yeah, I wanted to have gone skydiving. LOL

It was fun, but it was also terrifying. I really enjoyed it and am glad I did it, but I’m never doing it again! I hated the freefall…going 120 mph with the wind blowing my mouth open and I was basically in some sort of base survival mode just to keep breathing with all that wind. I was just too panicked and terrified to have the wits about me to enjoy that at all. But after the parachute opened, it was quiet, and peaceful, and soooooooo beautiful. By then I was slightly hysterical from adrenaline and was giggling uncontrollably. I couldn’t stop grinning for quite a while. It was just really beautiful up there.

I still can’t believe I did it. Dan feels pretty much the same about it as I do…we’re not adrenaline junkies, so the thrill was more of a heart-attack than a…thrill. But we’re both glad we did it. And he looked really cute in his parajumper uniform. Already we’re looking back on this morning and thinking, we did that?? I look back and remember the inital tip out of the plane and the vast view and the whipping wind and it just seems impossible. But I did it. It’s kind of empowering, I guess.

Dan just sent me a link to the Cornish University of Art in Seattle.

I had been mostly planning on attending the Seattle Art Institute, but I’ve been learning that it’s primarily a career school, not too focused on much other than graphic arts. The Cornish University of Art sounds awesome…all the things it teaches…just reading through the things they expect you to learn by graduation made my eyes fill up with tears. I can’t imagine having that kind of education…and they have a really low faculty-to-student ratio, so there is lots and lots of personal mentoring going on. I just can’t imagine what that would be like.

But then, there’s the regular ol’ University of Washington, with their other courses. I’m really primarily interested in their arts and sciences division, because not only does it have all sorts of yummy art mediums to learn about, but also yummy sciences like astronomy, and other yummy things like Classics (philosophy, history, Greek and Roman influences!), English (Literature! Poetry!), and such.

I can’t find anything anywhere on culinary arts though. I guess you just have to go to a lonely culinary art school for that.

The Cornish school doesn’t even require you to take your SAT’s…although I want to anyway, of course. It’s all about portfolios.

I’m just so overwhelmed! So many choices, so many decisions…I feel like I have this one chance to make it all right and if I do it wrong I’ll regret it forever! The idea of putting together a portfolio scares me…I’ve given away some of my best art; at least I have some dinky photographs. Most of my recent stuff has been online. I need to study up on how to compile a portfolio, but for some reason, the entire idea just overwhelmes me with fear of failure.

I have a whole … few months though. I’m going to spend this winter/spring/summer working on my portfolio so it will be nice for colleges this fall.

FIRSTS:

First best friend: Kathy Scroggins
First car: 198? Nissan Sentra, champagne colored, named Zippy
First piercing/tattoo: my ears, when I was eight
First big trip: I don’t remember. When I was little.
First flight: to Seattle, when I was 16
First time skiing/Snowboarding: a few years ago
First concert: Unless you count ballet, dance, and classical music, then it was Garth Brooks. *dies of shame*
First ticket violation: Never had a ticket!
First job: Childcare worker at Creative Children’s Center
First date: With Dan in Las Vegas

LASTS:

Last car ride: On the way home from dinner. I drove though. So riding, on the way to dinner.
Last kiss: when Dan was going to bed
Last time you cried: When I found out we were moving
Last movie watched: Shaun of the Dead
Last food you ate: mmmm….see “Anniversary Dinner”
Last love: my sweet husby
Last temptation: Does dessert count, or do I have to have said no? I guess I was tempted to have a chocolate when I got home, but I was too full.
Last item bought: stuff for Dan’s birthday
Last annoyance: Other patrons in the restaurant
Last time wanting to die: It’s been a long time! YAY!!!
Last alcoholic drink: shared a bottle of wine with Dan
Last concert: those dudes at the Neurolux…
Last phone call: at work, just helping customers. I don’t really talk on the phone at home.
Last time at the mall: last…year?
Last friend you added on MYSPACE: I don’t do myspace.

CURRENT:

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:

01. Spiders

02. Your average Hastings customer

03. Being startled?

THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:

01. Rachael

02. John (aka Blake)

03. Brian (aka GM)

THREE THINGS I LOVE:

01. Dan

02. good food

03. Beauty

THREE THINGS I HATE:

01. close-mindedness

02. judgmentalism

03. rudeness

THREE THINGS I DON’T UNDERSTAND:

01. George Bush

02. math

03. How microphones work

THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:

01. papers

02. clay figure

03. glass of water

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:

01. Go to college

02. have children

03. enjoy a career

THREE THINGS I CAN DO:

01. draw well

02. cook decent food

03. fart a lot

THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:

01. unique

02. introverted

03. understanding

THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY LOOKS:

01. French

02. long hair

03. green eyes

THREE THINGS I CAN’T DO (But wish I could):

01. Stay home from work tomorrow

02. Hang out with my parents regularly…without awkwardness

03. Same with Dan’s parents.

THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:

01. the wind

02. the sea

03. your footsteps

THREE THINGS I DON’T THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO EVER:

01. your vomit

02. your poop

03. your fingernail

THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:

01. I love you

02. Hi

03. Can I help you find something?

THREE ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:

01. King crab legs with butter

02. cheese (edam)

03. dark chocolate truffle

THREE BEVERAGES I DRINK REGULARLY:

01. chai tea

02. water

03. italian sodas

THREE SHOWS WATCHED WHEN I WAS A KID:

01. Star Trek

02. Get Smart

03. Andy Griffith

THREE BEAUTIFUL WORDS:

01. Pulchritudinous

02. Post

03. Sea

THREE PERFECT PLACES:

01. Whidbey Island, WA

02. Seattle, WA

A TRUE OR FALSE SURVEY.

There are some things I can write about that I can’t talk about. False

There are many people that I dislike. true

I like living in the present. True

I love giving people gifts. True

I hate musicals. False

I haven’t been in any musical performances. True

I love to sing. true.

I love cheesecake. false

I have a lot of trust issues. true

I am not a virgin. true

I eat meat sometimes. true

If it has vodka in it, I’ll drink it. true

I wait too long before I see a doctor. false

If I like a movie, I become obsessed with it. false

I don’t like video games. false

I hate competition. true

I can take good qualities and learn something from everyone I know. false (that doesn’t hold true with psychotics) (well…except…take your medication. LOL)

I can sometimes be very self-conscious. true

I don’t have tattoos. false

I am an independent person. false

I am in love. true

I think I’m a dork. true

I can’t keep secrets. false

I live in my room. I don’t have a room. But I live in my house?

I don’t know what most big words mean. false

I tend to get pissed at people very easily. false

I get peeved quite easily. true

I love stuffed animals. false

I’ve never puked from alcohol intake. false

I hate cartoons. false

My family has no “family secrets” that we’re not supposed to talk about. false

I’m afraid of letting everyone down. false

I think to a degree, I’ve been too grown up for years. false

I sometimes get upset for no good reason. true

It would be nice if I were to be on MTV someday. false

I went to a public school. true

I don’t identify with my generation. true

I know who I want to marry someday. true?

I believe there’s someone for everyone. false

My family is dysfunctional. true

I’m scared of the dark. sometimes

I’m right handed. true

I have really long hair. I guess…

I would love to see the world. true

I don’t get along well with my family. semi-true

I’m Wiccan. false

I’m really good with kids. true

I used to be a “cutter:” true

I love to act. true

I get withdrawal if I don’t have internet access for more than a few days. uh…try minutes.

I’ve had an eating disorder. false

I don’t know how to drive. false

I like having my picture taken. true

I know sign language. false

I don’t like rap music. true

I never wear makeup. false

I have a brother. false

I love Spike from Buffy. I’ve never watched Buffy.

I have been to Texas. false

I have a hard time keeping in touch with people who are far away. true

I’ve smoked cannabis. true

I love sci-fi. true

I would like to get a tattoo some time in my life. wouldn’t mind another!

I wish money really did grow on trees. false

I don’t live with my parents. true

I secretly like dressing up. It’s no secret. haha

I enjoy painting. true

I don’t know anything about cars. false

I prefer dogs to cats. false

I do not like cold weather one bit. false

I hate doing my dishes. true

I don’t like stupid people. false…retarded people are sweethearts.

I know how to sew. VERY little.

We had a bottle of syrah that was absolutely delicious, sausage (Dan) and hazelnut encrusted brie with lingonberries (me) for appetizers, spinach salad (Dan) and Caesar heart salad (me), exquisite duck with leek pancakes (Dan), mediocre but very tender lamb with potatoes and awe-inspiring squash (me), good strong coffee with cute little bits of raw sugar that looked like pieces of rough smoky quartz, and pumpkin cheesecake (Dan) and my favorite chocolate and valencia orange lava cake (me). We don’t care about the Gamekeeper, we’re just very happy we go to eat in a beautiful place that served delicious and beautiful food!

We’re going to see Gizelle on the …OOOH! That’s tomorrow! I was thinking it was next Saturday, for some reason. Gizelle is the first ballet I’d ever seen. I think I was ten or so. I even remember what I was wearing…a pastel rainbow jumper that my mom had sewn for me. Ballet is so breathtakingly beautiful. Ballet makes my heart ache for all its beauty.

We’re going to go out on Thursday night instead, after I come back from work. It just feels so sad not to be able to go out on the right day. To barely even be able to interact with Dan, let alone celebrate with him. *pout*pout*

I just wish Sunday weren’t so inconvenient, because Aquarius is having her baby shower that day, and I’m scheduled to work through it. I have next Saturday off, though. Maybe I can switch someone this Sunday with next Saturday.

Seriously, this is going to be so nice for us. I’ll be able to go to college, and I want to go to either the Seattle Art Institute or Washington State (where Cady goes). There are a lot of things that we just won’t have to worry about any more. And I’ll be near the sea. And Whidbey! I was leaning on my Whidbey Island map of which I have a print hanging on the wall. I was leaning on it and crying; I can’t believe I’m going to be so close to Home!

It’s weird. I’ve basically been raised in Boise. I’ve lived here since I was 2wo. I do have a few memories before then, but yeah. Raised in Boise. (Totally unrelated side note- I actually have five memories from before I had even learned to talk!) But since I visited Whidbey Island (30 min-1 hour north of Seattle, for those of you who are not familiar with the area) for the first time when I was 12, I’ve felt more at home there than anywhere. I’ve been referring to it as Home for -wow. Almost 20 years. Good lord. Right now, I do prefer the anonymity of the big city. And I’ve been deeply in love with Seattle, smitten, in fact, since I was sixteen. I hear Bjork’s voice reverberating between the skyscrapers, the Stone Temple Pilots tremble the cement under my feet. Not that I think either of them have anything to do with Seattle, other than the fact that I always listen to them when I’m there.

And there will be places to eat. Oh yes, there will be restaurants. There will be occasions to wear evening gowns. (Well…for me, anyway.) There will be music…jazz even! There will be art galleries, and I hope, inspiration coming out of my arse. Not literally of course. I wouldn’t want to see that exhibit. There will be … David Bowie? Maybe! There will be plane rides and a California road trip! There will be Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years! There will be lamb roasts! Bottles of wine! Frames for our prints! More prints! Discounted software! The sequel to Riven! A new couch! A king size bed! Maybe a rug! Plasma monitors! Cute clothes for Meia! CDs, DVDs, close friends nearby, lunches! Dinners! Hanging-outs! There will be unabashed cigarettes on the street! There will be a pink iPod! A train! Maybe Alaska! There will be king crab legs with butter! And a bicycle that works! Neighbor cats that don’t run away (OK, so I’m not sure about that one, but there’d better not be neighbor dogs that don’t run away)!